Communication is key.

Someone said that communication is key to a successful relationship.
This is true, probably one of the most important factors.

I had an moment of enlightenment tonite, and this is my revelation to you, gentle reader.

I have never had a long term relationship. When I say long term, I mean for more than a month and a half.

Why is that?
The only relationship I really know is based on momentary passion. Lust if you will. That's all fine and dandy, some people go through these kinds of stages, some don't. Cool beans.

What do I really want?
A long term relationship, to be loved, to love.

What's my problem?
Too many choices. At this point in time, there are 5 women who are interested (that I know of) in having relations with me, and it's mutual in all cases (again, which I know of).
I say this without ego, nor am I trying to point out something to make myself feel better, contrairy to that fact, it makes me feel worse.

The point I am trying to make is that I can not decide.

I'm trying to get it out of my head that there is no "one" woman for me. To quote my father, "You start off as two people, and by sharing with each other, you end up as one."

Now, that's sounds pretty bad that I have a 'pick of the litter' as some people go their whole lives not having that option. Every day I meet so many new people, that those options keep growing, and in my mindset, I don't want to go out with a woman, if there is the possibility that the 'one' might show up.

Already haven eaten my foot, I will insert the other.

What am I doing by searching for this "one"?
This is what I have to say about that last comment. By spending so much time trying to find the 'perfect companion' I have passed up so many opportunities to have relations with a lot of amazing women. Really, what's better than the perfect one? Nothing... everyone is below that 'perfect' status and that is not fair. Not fair to those I have encountered, and not fair to myself.

I hate that fact, and I am trying to change that.

Now my 'moment of elightenment' comes into effect with the topic of communication.

Why have I not had a long-term relationship?
Here's the real reason. Communication.

I have woken up next to a woman, and had nothing to say to her. It's pretty bad when both parties are talking to the cat because they have nothing to say to each other (here's a side revelation: I hate cats). I have also spent a lot of time just talking to women, and usually those are the ones I am most attracted to. If conversation is always around, communication is solid, then sex is just an added perk.

There's more to this, there will always be more, but that's all I can put down for now.

Maybe I'm looking too far ahead.
Maybe I'm doing just fine.
I dunno, tomorrow's another day.