Until it happens to you

You will never truely know how you will feel.

Recently I have come to realization that my family is not invulnerable.

In the last few days my father has been in the hospital due to heart problems. There's no need to go into details, but some major changes have and are going to happen in the family because of it.

You hear all the time about an ailing person, one with cancer, diseases, or varying degrees of sickness. That topic was foreign to me until a little while ago. This brings a new light, a new appreciation, respect, and understanding for those going through serious health complications, and the family members going through the ordeal of witnessing a loved one struggle.

Essentially, it blows. The feeling of helplessness has not been more present in my life until now. One wants to help, but there is nothing one can do except be around for moral support, and to trust in the profession which is the doctor. And because of this, I have a renewed respect for doctors. Not only do they have the pressure of taking care of their patients, but they also have the pressure of making sure a family stays a family (ie. not losing a family member).

This is the time where 'faith' and one's belief in it comes into the scene.
I have faith the doctor is looking out for my father and my father's best interest.
I have faith that everything will be fine.

Do yourself a favor, and tell those you love how you feel about them.
You don't know if they'll be around tomorrow.