I have pushed a reset button.

From this day forward, I'm free.
Unfortunately, this does not come without consequence for myself, and those around me.

I have published a blog previously about not being able to make a choice between many options. I have made a choice, and it is e) none of the above. Who falls into this category? Everyone.

I am sorry.

I could not commit to one person prior to this posting, because if I were to, I would not be thinking solely of the one person who was involved with me in the relationship.
Therefore my undivided attention would not be spent on one person, and with that, I would not be true to the one person, and I would not be true to myself.

That's not all truth. I would have committed to one person. I've put one woman in front of all others for the last three years. Just recently I came to terms that it wasn't mutual, and therefore I went through the stages of denial, and just recently I've hit "acceptance". A 'finality of a situation' if you will. Nothing is going to happen.

I have pushed a reset button in regards to relationships, and this is my apology for that, and to those individuals who I might have mislead in this process.

• I'm sorry that I did not give you a chance.
• I'm sorry that I have to end something before it could even start to flourish.
• I'm sorry that, until now, I have unknowingling mislead you to believe something could have happened.
• I'm sorry that I have to start everything from the beginning.
  

I have to do this for myself so I don't fall into a similar situation as before, and because the smallest respect I can give to another is the truth.

My truth to you, gentle reader, is that I have mislead myself, and with some help, I hope never to do the same again.